I still talk to her when I need to. It makes me feel close to her. As I’m driving I’ll tell her what’s going on, since she always wanted to know our schedules. I tell her how my job is doing cause she like being involved. I even ask advice. You have no room for regret in being involved in her life as you did more than anyone. So it’s okay to miss her, but don’t put any guilt on yourself because that’s not true. here’s a hug for you.